Avy , be positive, "all your pain" will eventually go. I felt like you and I was full of despair after suffering for two years going the rounds of chiropractors, massage therapists etc. I feel far more confident now even though I have had one thing after another and I am still suffering, because I am learning to be indifferent to it. My therapist helped me with journaling , we discovered where my TMS was coming from by exploring my past childhood, then he told me to "pen vent" my anger and fear, this means writing it all down as quickly as you can letting all the emotions come from your head down through your arm and out through your hand. Keep writing it over and over until you feel exhausted with it then destroy it by screwing it up into a ball or as I did put it through the the shredder, then put it into the past. I had to write about sadness and loneliness also but I feel I don't need to do much about that now, I just write about any current emotion such as anxiety about a certain upcoming situation or event. Practice and you will get the hang of it. Some people keep their journals and look back on them but I don't I do not want to keep reminding myself of the past. I like doing what Dr Howard Schubiner says " I let go of issues that have bothered me in the past" and I add on "I forgive myself and others easily" You can do this Avy, there are a lot of people out there ready to help. You will be OK.