Hey, all. I’ve been at this for a couple years now with ups and downs, but these past few weeks have OWNED me. My pelvic pain (rectal tightness, burning) has come roaring back, not that it ever completely left. I can’t sleep. I can’t sit. It’s so bad that it’s all I can think about. I’m not proud to write that, but it’s the truth. I have no doubt my brain is causing it but right now it just seems like it wants to kill me. I know the tenets of TMS. I know the “return to life” thing and “outcome independence” and “feel your emotions” but it’s just too bad right now. I’m non-functional. I honestly don’t know how the pelvic success stories did it. I’m barely hanging on. I managed to get a pelvic pt appointment for Wed (sue me) because I’m hoping for just a little relief. I don’t know what else to do. I feel like I’m failing at this. It’s so bad all the time. I don’t want to give up, but I don’t know how to get out of this space. I’m sorry for all the negativity. No idea why I’m even writing here. Maybe I’m trying to coax out a pelvic pain survivor to share some wisdom, though I know that probably won’t help. I’m in the grip of it: the pain, the obsession. I’m scared, folks. There’s no clear way out of this and I have been TRYING. I don’t want to give up but I can barely move. How many days, weeks of “this is just temporary” can one person do?