I fear this is all I am doing. I strongly believe in TMS , but likely for all others-- and not me who is "uniquely defective", perhaps? There couldn't be a more arduous student than me regarding psychosomatic disease. 80% of the authors mentioned by Sarno have been in my library for 30 years. Dr. Bernie Seigel helped me through 3 cancer bouts--I'm 16 years cancer free. I spent the majority of my adult life in psychotherapy, 12 step programs. If what is suppressed is worse than what I can easily recall, I'm not sure I want to go there. I'm bored with my "story" and sick of analyzing it. "Fibromyalgia" plagues me (my doc says), along with x-rays and scans supporting other in-vogue maladies. I poo-poo it all and still I hurt despite constant reading of Sarno's books and journaling---now in Dr.Schechter's workbook, just arrived. What kind of con job am I pulling on myself?