I'm with you, Painfreefuture, so glad I saw this post. I have a 2 1/2 year old, and my story is a little different in that for the first 10 months or so after she was born, I was quite happy. I could do the newborn thing (which was surprising because I've never been a kids person and actually wasn't totally sure I even wanted a kid). Then at some point I started getting unhappier and unhappier...I was a stay at home mom somewhat by choice, but also because I was laid off from my full-time job during maternity leave. I really needed to have gone back to work part-time (I have since done that). Anyway, I've had anxiety issues practically my whole life, mostly in the form of OCD. But my major physical symptom, which I now know is TMS, started when my daughter was about 16 months old, which interestingly correlated to when I weaned her from breast feeding. I think that does have something to do with it because my hormones were changing, I was having intense anxiety and panic attacks, etc. I too like many others feel like I should be so happy to have a child (and it was NOT easy for us to conceive), like, why can't I just be happy instead of battling depression, anxiety and TMS all the time? Why is it easier to be away from my child? Why does life seem harder NOW that I have a child vs my life before? But, clearly, this is normal. Especially for those of us that struggle with TMS issues. Njoy - I really liked all you said...made me smile and I can totally relate!