Hi all, First off thank you all so much for your support. You are all so kind! I had a couple good weeks of no pain (even though I'm trying to re-shape my thinking to not be focused on the pain but the pscyche) but I was doing well, I believe and had little pain. I was doing PT at the time too. I still had tension and knots - is that normal to have no pain but still the tension and knots? but anyway, the normal pain was gone. A few days ago, I started having low back pain though. It's happened before and the muscles just feels SO tight. I tried stretching them out last night, but currently so frustrated that this is happening. It's made me start doubting and want me to book a PT appointment. I've been also really stressed out- I know this is true. I wrote a one act play with so many repressed memories and tomorrow only 15 get selected to be performed, and we are a group of 46. I'm anxious to be selected. I'm also the only minority person where I am and constantly feel left out/unable to relate. This school finishes in 3 weeks but we have to create a piece together, all together, and I am already starting to worry whether I will have a voice in the larger group of people. I started carrying a bag, so that;s good. And it's done nothing to advance or make worse my pain. I also sleep fine. Recently though I'm just so sad and can't understand why this low back pain is there and when it wiill go away.