I walked around the block with my dog 2 days ago as I had been doing 2-3 days a week as a part of my recovery and within 15mins I was feeling pain like I felt in my darkest hour a year ago. The pain in my sacrum/buttock area has been burning so much that I have trouble sitting, fear dog walking and didn't go to work today. This all started a little over a year ago and I am so frustrated! I've read all of Sarno's books, SteveO's book (so great), Amir, and Brady's book after having MRI's/Xrays that show usual disk aging stuff. Tried PT, Chiro, EFT, Acup. + more. At the first of the year I had hope and improved re-reading Sarno and SteveO's book and pushing through the pain (walking, jogging, shopping). I have worked p/t since March but since August I've slowing digressed. It's like a roller coaster - I journal and read something on TMS Form (Wavy Soul's Journey is so helpful!) and feel better and then I fall into fear, dread with increased pain with activity. The book 'Will to Live' is resonating with me. I may have big issues around that as I haven't been passionate about anything in my life for a while (just turned 50). Thought that after joining A Course in Miracles group at first of year I would be more positive with the knowledge of my true Self and not identifying with my small self would be liberating (Simple, but not easy). So many years of not loving myself unconditionally...I suppose change is incredibly hard for me. Start psychotherapy sessions tomorrow. I can conceptualize TMS & mind/body/spirit connection, yet journaling, trying to ignore pain and not fear, read inspirational stories/books only works temporarily. Knowing about Extinction Bursts makes me feel a little better but... hurts so much & don't want to quit my job Help!!