I have nearly broken down in tears three times in the last five days ...... twice today alone. I don't know whether it's worse to have the pain still be here over 18 months after discovering TMS or to have it go and then come back, after writing about something usually quite random. It's always something totally random ..... for example I was on a call to my brother last September. The next morning the pain had spread to the top half of the back of my thighs. Finally the day after the pain started, I believed it was that I was jealous of my brother. The pain went away within six hours and has never come back. Am I really jealous of my brother?? No. I have no idea what to do next.