Pain becomes an addiction. A fix. I’m not talking about dull aches. They’re just annoying, an irritation. I’m talking about the heroin of pain. The hard stuff. The pain so bad you transcend and escape. The pain so bad you allow yourself the really strong painkillers saved for only these occasions. And then bliss. People become addicted to pain medication. But possibly they are addicted to pain first. And how is this different from those who choose to self-harm? Self-harming is viewed with disgust whereas (unconsciously created) back pain is given sympathy. But perhaps the self-harmer deserves the more respect. At least they are honest. I chose to take ownership of the pain in my back It is not being done to me. I am as responsible for (unconsciously) inflicting it equally as if I were holding a knife and cutting my arm. (You can’t write that, people will think you are nuts, not to mention a self-harmer) I chose to take ownership of the pain in my back What makes a person choose one addiction over another? Personality. Someone strung less tightly than me would find a different diversion. Post Script: I wrote the above about 5 or 6 years ago when I was in chronic pain and was just starting on my Sarno/TMS journey. I wrote it as part of a series I have since put on a blog ( http://painfatigueandme.wordpress.com/about/), but decided it was too extreme to have on a blog where people unfamiliar with Dr Sarno and TMS would be viewing it and also because any friends I showed it to didn't understand it. I hope in this forum it has found an appropriate home for discussion.