In the last 18 months, I had two major (by my measure, of course) accomplishments and I made one life-changing decision. It all came to head now, and anxiety hit. And today I told my boss that I am taking an early retirement this July, thus finalizing the decision that I made 18 months ago. My anxiety rose considerably last week, when I was done with my accomplishments. But it is now at a fever pitch. No pain symptoms yet, just anxiety and depression. In addition to the worries that I am setting myself up for a life much less comfortable financially, which worries me a lot (although I repeated my calculations many times and proved that I should be OK if I watch my budget carefully) I find myself lacking a goal or a purpose and that seems to be a big part of the problem. I spent my life going from one goal to another, and there were always goals to set and accomplish. The reason for retirement from my well-paying but not very rewarding job was that I always wanted to do many things: travel, volunteer, advance in yoga, do more hiking and trekking, read more, socialize more, join a choir, revive my long-forgotten French and many more things. My job sucked all the energy and time out of me and I was getting tired of it. But once I decided to actually retire, all those items from my bucket list seem to lose their appeal. I am anxious how it is going to play out. My achievements that seemed to be so huge, now look pathetic. I am meditating and going to the yoga class 2-3 times a week, I run, hike and do all the things that pulled me out of CRPS and dystonia - but I seem to be overwhelmed. I feel that I lost a guard rail that sustained me through my life before. Any advice out there? I know there are retired people on the forum - how have you dealt with yours?