I can't even start to talk about how much emotional work i've done during this go around with TMS. I decided to go back to my fab therapist. And after learning (on this forum!! thank you!!) about Nicole Sachs' "journalspeak" program, have been writing for 20 minutes every morning followed by 10 minutes of quiet sitting. I really came into this TMS session thinking "I have no idea what's wrong - everything is my life is great - stressful but great." Well now, thanks to therapy, journaling and meditation, I realize that i was carrying around a lot of anger, fear and GARBAGE. It's no wonder that I am in so much pain! Even if I never get over this pain (and it's bad - I'm limping around) I stil have been able to come to a place of honesty and that place is so much better than being avoidant and scared and sad. After my morning journalling session today, I decided that I had faced my demons for the day and that I was going to go out and find JOY! That even if I have pain I can still have JOY! And it worked. I was joyful. GRATITUDE!