I think the greatest change I would like in my life is to be free from fear. I want to be free from the fear of pain, because to be honest I am scared of my pain. I'm not scared about a structural problem, I'm simply scared due to the severity of the pain. I also want to be free from fear about what other people think of me. I want to be free from unhealthy fears of God and being condemned. I want to be free from my fear of rejection, and being alone. I even get fearful about situations which might trigger my anxiety, as being anxious is such an unpleasant state to be in. I really want to be free emotionally, mentally and spiritually more than anything else. It makes me think of this Scripture verse: "The human spirit can endure in sickness, but a crushed spirit who can bear?" - Proverbs 18:14 NIV As far as the steps to take to get there, I know there are lots of things I can do. I've been doing guided Christian meditation lately, which has helped to calm me down and overcome anxiety. I've also been seeing a counsellor, and doing the Structured Education Program. There are many helpful books related to health and spiritual growth which are helping me too. Talking to friends and receiving their support and prayers during this time has been invaluable as well. I feel really blessed and thankful to have such wonderful people in my life!