*The most recent daily Journal updates are gonna be at the bottom of the thread!* Hey guys! I'm so glad I've found Dr. Sarno's book and this forum. I've had a patella tendonitis caused by too much Badminton pretty much four years ago. Since I was not able anymore to do any sports that were paired with running or jumping, I switched to bodyweight strength training. Due to my excessive need to prove myself to others and to gain external gratification I did way too much in that area aswell and was left with golfer's and tennis elbow on both arms. After that, I did not do any sport at all for about a year because I was in constant fear that I might get injured and wouldn't be able to do anything again. During that time I had symptoms in my knee and my elbows from time to time, they were bearable but they always made me think "I'm still injured", because I thought if my joints and tendons were fine I wouldn't have any pain. A year and a half ago I severely hurt my back and this one has actually been the most depressing, since now even sitting hurt. To build up my back muscles I tried out swimming, which actually worked fine, even though I had anxiety about knee and elbow pain. Although they did sometimes reoccur, I already had the feeling that the pain was somewhat psychosomatic. Still, this epiphany didn't change much, because all the stuff such as rehabilitative excercise, ESPECIALLY trigger point therapy, (which I'm probably an expert on now, since I always thought those were the cause of my pain ) relieved the symptoms but didn't remove them. Yesterday, after an exhausting semester in medicine, with the summer holidays in front of me, I woke up again with bad back pain again. I felt really depressed, typed in some random stuff on youtube about back pain cure and stumbled upon a video that featured a guy promoting Dr. Sarno's book. Upon reading it I could see myself in so many sentences, especially the extreme perfectionism and the wandering of the pain to other body parts (the symptoms I described above are only the really bad ones, I've had recurring "tendonitis" in other parts of my body for no real reason). I actually had to cry during some passages because I felt like finally someone understood my pain. I immediately went slacklining (for those who don't know: it's a balancing line you attach to two trees or poles) after finishing the book and it didn't cause any back pain! Usually, I've always been getting back pain from doing that. I feel like TMS is finally the correct diagnosis and it feels amazing to have something that I can work on independently from any doctors! So, what would a life without TMS mean to me? I think if it was just the pain that went away with the psychological symptoms and causes still being left I'd probably find something to preoccupy myself with rather quickly. So for me a life without TMS would mean less perfectionism, being able to accept mediocrity in some areas in my life, care less about the approval from others (most likely caused by me being bullied during school) and have a more laid back attitude towards life. Couple this with being able to finally pump all the energy out of my body with running and I'm gonna be as happy as I've never been before!