Dear all, I am 53 and I am joining you from Germany. I hope my English is sufficient for this forum. I would like to share my TMS story. I have read Dr. Sarno´s books (Healing Back Pain and the Divided Mind) in 2012 when I was experiencing arm and frozen shoulder pain for several months. At that time I was changing jobs and had emotional stress. Since the pain came - at that time - out of nowhere I was pretty sury that it was a psychosomatic disorder. But I think my TMS story started much earlier: When I was in grade 6 at school I had difficulties finding friends and fitting in. Coincidentally I developed headache for several months which vanished when I was able to make friends with classmates. Beginning of age 20 I had much stress with my family and at work. I developed carpal tunnel syndrome - it accompanied me for 12 months. I went thru different therapies and one doctor told me that I would never be able to peel potatoes pain free.... The pain vanished when my life circumstances changed. At the age of 30 I was unhappily in love. I suffered for several months and developed Hashimoto Thyrioditis at the same time. But my real TMS trip started in the unhappy marriage to my former husband (I am divorced for 3 years now). Soon after our wedding ceremony I developed a skin rash at the whole body which could only be cured with Cortisone and lasted several months... (later on I discovered that my husband had had an affair at the same time with a work colleague).... I think my unconsciousness wanted to protect me from my extreme emotional stress... Since my former husband was very successful in convincing me to stay in the marriage I tried very hard to play the happily married couple. It took me some time and couple therapy to come to the conclusion that I should leave him. And that was the time my body rebelled. Soon after I had left him I got a frozen shoulder. One week it was at the left side and the other week on the right side. Additionally I developed knee problems and achilles tendon pain. In the beginning the pain was coming and going. But after a few months it got worse and I was diagnosed rheumatiod arthritis (RA). Even my blood parameters were supporting this diagnosis. I was pretty sure that all the pain had a psychosomatic background. I was sent to a clinic for further diagnosis with x-rays and further blood tests. The diagnosis (rheumatoid arthritis) was confirmed. I still was not convinced and tried everything (starting from Ayurveda, changing my diet etc) in order not to have to take the medication. But in the end I agreed to take Cortisone and later on MTX which is the standard medication for rheumatic arthritis in Germany. I went thru a very hard time (including my divorce). I even had to accept a new job offer since the company I was working for was taken over... And I have to admit that first Cortisone and later on MTX helped. The swellings vanished and after 6 months I was able to go jogging again. ...and then the miracle happened. While I was succesful in my new job and had found a nice flat - surrounded by my best friends - I healed - at least mentally. I did my homework and went to a therapist who was able to help me - even though she was - not specialised on TMS. But I started reading the books of Dr. Sarno again. 2 Years after my divorce I met a nice honest and caring man with whom I fell in love with. And 3 months ago my doctor told me that my blood parameter for rheuma have been decreasing for the last 9 months. He agreed that I could try to skip the medication which I did..... At the moment I am pain free - taking no medication at all. I know it is very early to hope for a miracle. But considering even rheumatic arthritis could be TMS I am very enthusiastic to overcome this illness. Does anybody else in this forum has made a similar experience?