On my way but need help.

Hello everyone,
I'm Romain from France
Here is my little story:
I think I have always been anxious since I was little.
My parents argued a lot and my father was sometimes violent.
I consulted a psychologist at the age of 8.
School was a nightmare and at home I didn't feel safe.
From 14 to 16 years old I took anti-anxiety medication.
When I turned 18 I was drugged and sexually abused several times.
From my 30s I started to feel fatigue and chronic pain.
For 4 years I have had panic attacks and insomnia.
Last year my fatigue was so severe that I spent my time in bed, moreover my partner was pregnant and the pressure of being a father in my condition was very hard to cope with.
I started hormone therapy because all of my hormones were very low.
Since my condition it has improved, but what made the difference is reading John Sarno's books, watching TMS videos and getting back to sport.
Here are my current symptoms:
-Insomnia
-tired
-tension and pain all over the back
-difficulty breathing
-difficulty to digest
- crisis of anger and anxiety / panic.
And here are the actions I take to heal:

-Work with a psychotherapist specializing in somatic experiencing.
-Listen to Claire weekes
-Read the Pain recovery program
-Accept my emotions
-Bodybuilding, running, yoga.
I specify that I am very perfectionist and intolerant
I still have trouble accepting my symptoms ...
I think it's because I want to be perfect ... I feel injustice when I compare myself to others who don't suffer from the same things ...
I am here to feel supported, understood and to help because in my entourage I feel alone to suffer from this.
At the moment, for example, I am working on a show as an actor / stuntman / singer and the lack of sleep + pain + difficulty breathing makes it difficult for me to work properly.
So under these conditions I find it difficult to fully accept my symptoms ...
A little help would be welcome
Peace

 

Claire Weekes is the best. Remember, it takes time to heal. Be patient!
I just posted on another thread something that you need to read:

https://www.tmswiki.org/forum/threads/chronic-fatigue-heart-palpitations-anxiety-fibromyalgia.24265/ (Chronic fatigue, heart palpitations, anxiety, fibromyalgia)