I'm having tms symptoms that I had at the onset off the chronic pains and fatigue distraction decades ago. So I try to do challenging exercises that involve the body parts that I am obsessing about and that I tell myself that I should hold back from using or that I'll hurt if I vigorously use them. So that seems to work. The physicophobia is confronted. But my memory seems very short, and the anxious obsession comes back over and over. I have the sense that I have to keep repeating and that the moments of awareness will expand. Not easy. I'm very intimidated by the seeming size of the project, and it's so challenging to strive for outcome independence. It's easy to slip into: I hate everything and everybody, and it's all infuriating, and I want it all to go away. I'm so frustrated that I wish that I could shriek, even if I am not clear what about.