Day 1.... here's my story I am a 43 year old nurse who worked cardiac her whole career until last summer. Last summer I took a new position in "pain management " and helping dr in the "spine center " where I work. I never was scared of cardiac the whole 15 yrs I worked it but immediately I became scared of spinal issues and chronic pain after working with these patients. I still was myself, never sick or hurt Day in my life. October of 2016, I went on vacation w a close friend who was in a wheelchair while suffering from chronic back pain. Scared the heck of me but still did not think much of it. NOvemeber of 2016, went on a crazy workout spree and developed some left sided back pain. I ignored it, rested it , it went away. DEcemebwr of 2016, started to get numbness on/ off in left foot. Jan of 2017 (happy new year ) , I went walking four miles ( normal activity for me ), developed back pain that worsened since then. Underwent PT, MRI ( showed left sided sludgy bulging disc), Steriod shot ; response lasted 48 Hrs max, placed on Meds (since then has weaned myself off of most). Read sarno book in march but did not think of myself as "chronic " at thAt time. Since then pain continues, I now feel it is probably TMS due to fear of becoming one of my patients. I am going to overcome this! I have confident in myself! I can do this ! I have to be more persistent than the pain. This is my first post. I have not started journaling yet,due to not really sure how to start. Wish me luck!!!