Hello all! Please don't feel obligated to answer all of my questions, just know that I'm struggling with this whole concept (as you will probably be able to tell by reading my questions). 1. I received a diagnoses from a doctor that specializes in TMS after a 45 min conversation. Loved the doctor and felt strong after leaving his office. However, now I'm constantly going back and forth with it. Is this normal? In my heart I know it's unresolved issues that's causing my low back pain, but I can't get my head to understand and accept that! As soon as the pain starts the negative little devil starts talking ...Why me? When is this pain going to stop? 2. Most of the scenarios I've read about has been about people with debilitating pain. My pain is never more than a 3 out of 10. It's never debilitating, but very annoying! This little pain has caused quite a lot of damage though - gave me extreme anxiety for 6 months and at one point I wished I was dead rather than deal with this pain for the rest of my life (currently taking an antidepressant). Is there anyone else that has pain that is chronic, but not debilitating or is TMS just for high levels of pain? 3. I haven't started the journaling process mainly bc I can't figure out how to start. Do I use a notebook, a notepad, can I type my entries (will this be as effective?), pen, pencil......? Grrr 4. I keep reading that I need to reach my subconscious. However, I just don't know how to do that. Thoughts? 5. Why does the pain come and go? I can have really good days and not so good days. When I'm having a bad day I try to think about what is bothering me, but there isn't anything. Clearly I've supressed those feelings. Is this normal in TMS? 6. Dr. Stracks (Chicago) recommended a great therapist to talk to who specializes in people with TMS, but she's not covered by my insurance. Is there another way to find a good therapist that specializes in TMS that may be able to help me dig deep into my subconscious to get these repressed feelings to surface? Looking for one in the northern Illinois/SE Wisconsin area 7. So I had a situation at work over a year ago (right before my back pain started) with a colleague. It devastated me (hurt my feelings) and I still haven't gotten over it. I know bc I still talk about it. I'm thinking it's one of the main reasons why my back pain started. Do I need to confront her in order to get better? 8. Safe to keep track of pain levels? I know that when I don't focus every waking moment on my pain then I don't tend to notice it. So would keeping track me counterproductive? 9. What do you do when all of sudden you notice your pain is back again? Do you journal - if so about what (especially if your not angry or sad about anything at that moment) or do you just talk to it? 10. Any other books that you recommend I read? So far I've read: They can't find anything wrong! : 7 keys to understanding, treating and healing stress illness The Mind-Body Prescription Healing Back Pain Back Sense Pain Free for Life ( my fav so far) Thank you in advance for your time. I wish everyone a healthy body and mind!