Hey, @Kozas - it's been quite a while, I think, but I definitely remember your struggles. And it certainly seems like you and @patrickj have a LOT in common. The one that jumps out at me is that you both have mentally unbalanced mothers and essentially absent fathers. In your case, as a child you had to deal with your mother being bipolar, which is an evil disease, and with a father who I assume abandoned both of you because of her illness
Well it's more complicated than that, in theory he was mostly living with us, but every morning he was out of the house before I wake up, and return after I was already sleeping. Somethimes abandoning us for a short while(months at worst) but even when he was physically present he was treating house like I don't know hotel - just a place to sleep, eat and bath.
My Ace score is 3. I was often insulted by my mother, rarely felt loved and I think I can count her as drinker, although she was surprisingly functional alcoholic. No matter how much she drank given day, dinner was always ready(but like I already said it before food was important to her), house was clean and I had my clothes washed and ironed. Of course alcohol only made her mental problems worse. I think I forgave her(I will never forget how sometimes abusive she was, but forgivness is something she deserves. Her life was hard too, and in last few years she chilled out, and admites some of her mistakes.)
On the brighter side there was no physical violence in house, no problems with law(well my dad had many failed business ideas and problem with taxes, but it's not like I knew about that when I was a child, we had enough money)
P.S Thanks for compliment about my english. After many lost years I'm trying to better myself in every way I can. Learning about TMS and trying to implement work connected to it it's just one thing, but we can't forget to improve in other ways. Improving my english is one of those things, I have to admit that in my school I'm using every opportunity to better my english by talking with english teachers, but it's just so easier to read or listen than actually write or -worst of all- speak