Question to ponder on day 10 - Think of a person in your life from whom you hide your emotions. What is preventing you from telling this person how you feel? Well, the answer is... I don't express my emotions. Generally. First of all, I have difficulties recognizing my feelings. What is actually going on inside me - am I sad, angry, happy - or do I actually take over the other person's feelings and make them mine (which I'm pretty good at...). Secondly, I jump into all kinds of discussions with myself on whether this feeling is okay, relevant, has anything to do with the situation or is some old stuff inside me, whether there is any point in saying something, will the person understand me, recognize what I'm trying to say - or do I ultimately end up feeling lousy, wrong, inadequate, mentally unstable, hysterical etc. So I usually eat it up, step aside, observe for (much too) long time, speak to friends, journal, contemplate and then maybe - just maybe - say something general about how I feel about certain things... which may be a bit difficult for the person involved to understand... Unless I have observed for way too long and fallen into apathy and hopelessness... which in the end makes me leave the relation if I can or fall into depression if I can't. I sometimes say things pretty outright which is not always a good solution unless the receiver really gets it - but it's rare. I guess I'm not alone in this... Does anyone have any good ideas on how to be more clear earlier in the process??