When this whole thing started (when I was deadlifting)I went to a neurosurgeon who said looking at the MRI, that i can forget about deadlifting and just walk. No running. One doctor said lets do surgery right now and i have no option. Man that alone left me so helpless and traumatic that I curled up and did nothing. Was sad all the times and down on life. But here I am today, feeling a lot better, no surgery, and getting over my fears and will run. I am so close that i want to run!!! I am working on it. The fear is so deep rooted right now that it is very hard.