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no life paths without conflict; pain at the thought

Discussion in 'General Discussion Subforum' started by music321, Apr 28, 2017.

  1. music321

    music321 Peer Supporter

    I'm making strides in terms of ridding myself of mind/body dysfunction. Though I've seen little symptom reduction, I feel I've made quite a bit of progress in just the past week or so. I'm starting to shift the way I think about pain.

    I will soon be pain free and fully functional. My path through life at that point will not be easy. I will have several paths to choose from, all of which have serious obstacles. I am presented with a finite number of choices in life, all of which have serious flaws. Whenever I think of one potential path, I think of the difficult aspects of it (e.g., moving, money issues, etc.). I then get chest and stomach pains. I try to think of a different path instead, and realize the obstacles that path would involve, and again get chest and stomach pains.

    Being presented with a check for a large sum of money and a ticket to a tropical island would be a path of little stress, but this is a fantasy. Whenever I think of moving forward in any realistic way, the obstacles cause almost overbearing "discomfort". I can't even use the term "anxiety", because the feeling is different. It's a feeling of revulsion that I feel physically.

    Part of me thinks that this is "cowardice", and that I need to simply accept the obstacles and some how move on. At the VERY least, even if I find myself in profoundly unpleasant and difficult circumstances, I want to be free of TMS so that I can face life to the best of my ability. I don't know what to do about this latest obstacle that's emerging as yet another barrier to a life free from TMS. I try to simply "go with the flow" and try not to worry about the future, and think, whatever will be will be, yet these thoughts still inspire acute attacks of pain. Can anyone else relate?

    Can anyone offer any advice? Thanks.
  2. MWsunin12

    MWsunin12 Beloved Grand Eagle

    It might help to not think into the future too far. I would listen to your heart for which path to take. Then, choose one or two things that move you in that direction. You may find that the obstacles you fear either aren't as big as you thought, or they shift in a way that is less threatening.

    Also, perhaps talk to a therapist or life coach. Maybe there are more options than you can see at this time.

    good luck to you.

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