I just want to introduce myself. I posted my full story in the SEP sub-forum : http://www.tmswiki.org/forum/threads/a-new-year-a-new-approach.17690/ (Week 0 - A New Year, A New Approach) Even as I read it back, I thought, "All that bad luck? Surely she's making this stuff up!" Haha, nope. But my patterns of coping are beginning to fall into place with great clarity as I work through SEP. I internalized my stress and anxiety, literally swallowing it down in order to be the best mom and best partner and just plain best I could be. Working as a real estate agent had its moments, but it was hugely stressful and I didn't feel I was the best - so bam, I lost my voice. My marriage was superficially fine, but underneath I had been pushing down the pain and anger and the lack of feeling cherished for years and years, focusing instead on my children. As they grew out of the nest and life was more of me and my partner, my body started to fail. That all makes sense to me. Getting hit by a car, well, that was just a driver on her cell phone. But a revelation in its own painful way. So today, I realize I fully accept and embrace the TMS diagnosis. Am I improved because of that acceptance? No, I'm worse! Everything is flaring, my jaw muscles are literally jumping as they spasm, my ankle pain expanded into new areas, and my back hurts in spots it never hurt before. This is going to be an all-out battle. I'd greatly appreciate any words of advice or support from those of you who have been there, or are going through this too. Thanks!