I have been living with neck pain for the last four years. It started after I lifted my two-year-old, and my early symptoms included aching and pain in my right arm. I was told I probably had a herniated disc and it would get better. It didn't. It got worse. My symptoms have since evolved. I don't have much pain in my right arm anymore, but now I get pain in my upper traps, usually on the left side, sometimes on the right. I know I don't have the greatest posture, so I try to work on that, which helps minimally. I have tried the following with variable success: Massage/massage pillow Acupuncture Heat/ice NSAIDs Physical therapy (twice) Yoga Neurontin/Flexeril Theracane Meditation (although I'm very, very bad at it) I had an MRI and went to a pain clinic, and they offered me an injection, but said it probably wouldn't work, partially because I was so terrified. I cried at the appointment. I gave up lifting my daughter and stopped being able to push her stroller... I feel like I missed so much. Now she's too old to be lifted, but the pain remains. It isn't constant and it moves around a lot, and there are periods where it isn't as bad, but it's never gone. I feel like I'm not even a person anymore sometimes because there are so many things I limit myself from doing. I still work full time and take care of my kids, and that's all I can manage. I want to volunteer at their school events but I never do because I'm scared it will hurt me. I don't ever miss work, I just suffer. I read Dr. Sarno's book two years ago. As I was reading it, I thought to myself, "Wow, that is me exactly!" The personality type fit me so well. I'm an anxious person, very much a pleaser, and have constant physical ailments. Before this neck issue hit, I had issues with constantly feeling like I had to pee even though I had no UTI. Sleep issues.... definitely. IBS... that's been a lifelong problem, but it got so much worse a couple of years ago. The neck pain started when things were really bad with my husband. He was unhappy, threatening to leave me, saying that having children was a mistake and he didn't want to take care of them. I've always been a really anxious person. So it all made sense. But at the same time, reading the book didn't "cure" me. I didn't quite believe it at the time. I moved on to trying other things and put mindfulness aside. The last couple of months, I've had an "exacerbation" and I've been looking for answers. It all started when I found out we're likely going to have to move in the next year and I'll have to give up my home, job, and start over. I had never been back to normal, but I'd cut back on massage and all my little modalities. Now I've taken ten steps backwards. I want to be done with this for good! Also, I want to figure out how to deal with my anxiety in a better way. My mother has tinnitus that evolved to the point where she couldn't go to her grandchildren's ballet recital because she's scared of the noise. I see myself moving in that direction and I'm SO scared. It's like a freight train barreling toward me that I can't stop. Sorry that this turned into a novel. I really want to try this now... I feel like I'm ready to go all in, but I'm not entirely sure the best way to begin. I want to believe in TMS, but it's hard to believe that there's no physiological basis for my pain, even though it makes sense. That's probably why it didn't work for me when I read the book. I'd be SO grateful for any words of wisdom. Thank you in advance.