I have a very long history with TMS. Beginning over 10 years ago, I was first crippled by RSI (repetitive stress injury) to the point of having to quit my career. I finally found Sarno's book and the symptoms disappeared and never came back. Thereafter, I had many other TMS symptoms from which I made, in some cases, dramatic and over-night recoveries, including shoulder pain that had lasted for one year, multiple episodes of knee pain, and epididymitis (sounds obscure, but it is listed in the index of Sarno's book). The symptoms always appeared during a period of high stress. My entire TMS history is posted here: http://www.tmswiki.org/forum/threads/worried-about-shoulder-pain-and-my-tms-history.4501/ The shoulder pain is the most recent symptom I was able to banish. I was stuck on it for a year, with no progress. And when I suddenly remembered that "shoulder pain" is all over Sarno's book, and re-read the literature about TMS, the pain slowly faded over approximately 2-3 weeks. That was two months ago. But when the shoulder pain disappeared, it was a very strange situation for me. Strange, because I am very used to struggling against something in my life. Throughout my life, and in the presence of the TMS symptoms, I became a great fighter, a very skilled struggler. I knew how to get absorbed into the symptoms (before I knew about TMS), I was an expert at doing all the (misleading) research that focused on physical causes. At one point I was even thinking about switching my entire career to medicine, and to go to medical school just to cure my own symptoms. The symptoms dominated my life day and night. I was completely crippled and debilitated by them. Even though the physical psychosomatic ailments were destroying my life, they were also serving an important purpose: They kept me so debilitated that I had to dis-engage from my life and everything happening around me. The symptoms gave me safety. They protected me in a way that nobody else could. What were the dangers they were protecting me from? From a lot of threatening feelings that were a result of the abuse I experienced in my childhood. I was able to finally unravel these complex and threatening feelings in psychotherapy. As a result I have become much more familiar with the role of the mind in illnesses in general. Fast forward to today. Now that the shoulder pain is gone, I've begun obsessing over another symptom: memory loss, or forgetfulness. I have noticed in the last two months that I cannot recall in detail conversations I've had with people. I keep asking my friends "did we talk about this before?" because I'm afraid I will repeat something I already told them. This has been happening really frequently. And I've also noticed that several times I've misinterpreted something my friends said in a strange way. I do have to say that I've been meeting a lot of new people recently, and my dating life has also been more active than ever before. I've been seeing four women simultaneously (I am honest with them, and they know that I am currently dating, and am not being exclusive), and I had a lot of trouble keeping straight which of them had told me what. I kept mixing up details about their jobs, lives, and other personal details. I'm really obsessing over it, to the point where I'm afraid to talk to people now. I'm concerned that this might be early-onset Alzheimer's, which I know would be unusual for my age of 36. I also know of someone who was diagnosed with Creutzfeldt-Jakob disease at the age of 50, and that has similar symptoms. Any feedback would be very appreciated.