Hi everyone, I've not returned on these forums for some time now, because I wanted to stop obsessing about my many symptoms (to put it in a nutshell : diagnosed with fibromyalgia, IBS, migraines, dust allergy...). Fibromyalgia I consider myself cured of, although I've not been very active these past few months, so no "physical activity" test as of today. Rarely get migraines now too, only if I've slept way too little the night before. IBS is trickier, but I've not been as good at ignoring symptomes as I've been with fibromyalgia. The thing is, I feel like my symptom imperative has gone crazy since I've been working on my TMS a year ago and I'm stuck in a loop. I've seen a psychotherapist open to the mind-body connection for 1,5 year, have stopped now because I got to a point where I didn't seem to gain any new perspective from it. I now seem to have developed vulvodynia. My gynecologist thinks it's just irritation from sexual intercourse (I started having sex last October) and didn't use the term "vulvodynia", she just prescribed a soothing cream. There's no thrush, just redness. The thing is, I didn't see my boyfriend for 3 weeks during the holiday, and instead of decreasing, the pain and irritation got a bit worse. Plus, I already had a little burning sensation when I was still a virgin and using tampons. I'm now at the point where I can't have sex, even with a ton of lube ; at the start it was a little painful, but still enjoyable, now penetration is impossible. This is really, really distressing to me, as I've had a lot of anxiety around physical intimacy (which is one of the reasons I think it's TMS) and I'm now afraid my boyfriend will end up leaving me if I take too long to get better (he said it wasn't a problem for him to wait as long as necessary, but I'm not sure he realizes it can take months, if not years...). To put it bluntly, I'm tired of this shit. I also have PCOS, which can for sure contributes to dryness down there since I lack estrogens, but hey... it worked at first, and now this ? TMS all the way for me. My question is : the TMS approach of ignoring the pain and pushing through (which I used successfully with other symptoms) seems pretty hard to use here. Should I push through, though ? I read about some doctors prescribing lidocaine to anesthesize the vulva... could it be a way to rewire my brain into thinking that sex = not painful ? I must say I'm at a loss here, and very tired of the symptom imperative.