Hello, Ive been working with TMS for 3+ years now, thus far it only got worse. But im staying hopeful since this is my only hope. It started about 10-11 years ago when i was 18 with panic attacks because i was scared of my heart, no real reason why though. I didnt have palpitations back then, just a racing heart probably cause of the panic. I also abused alcohol at this time in my life i struggled with university being around new people and didnt fit in so i stopped going. It went bad and good on and off. I even started obsessively working out but ending up injuring myself in my trapezius and didnt take the time to let it heal, it never really got better so had to stop training. Then at 21 i abused drugs (amphetamine) and overdosed a bit and ended up in the hospital with at the time risk of heart rhythm issues or something. But only during the effects of the amphetamine. After that the panic attacks and anxiety reached new hights. I couldn't get out of the house anymore because the anxiety would be too great. I started gaming and drinking as a distraction. When i was gaming i was tensed all the time cause of the anxiety, soon i developed pain in my right forearm together with the trapezius pain of the injury of working out which i had for a few months already but it got worse gaming. I gamed like 14-16 hours a day. I never let my pains heal but kept gaming till i was in so much pain which cost me extreme exhaustion that i had to stop a few days before getting back to it. I also developed heart palpitations from these days on getting worse the following years. I ended up in a rehab clinic when i was 26 or something so about 2 years ago. I had 3 months rest there from a computer at least, i felt a lot better in that time. Like 90% better i told myself if this will stay like this my life is pretty good again. When i was back home i started working out again and working behind a PC thinking it should be TMS etc but the pain slowly increased with that came being tired again. Working out wasn't possible anymore because it got so bad i got extreme nausea from the pain. On and off i struggled with the TMS approach, TMS getting my hopes up going forward continuing activity until everything got so bad i lost faith again because it was not bearable anymore. Meanwhile i developed pain also in my upper back, neck, arm, hand, elbow. Even started on the left side too with now being pretty bad there too. Anyway now i started work again for 3 days a week and i game now and then because i enjoy it. I even went jogging again and picked up a guitar which i never dared with my pain and ive been playing for 5 weeks now. Believing in TMS even though my pain increased. I must say i kept it up pretty long for 5 weeks straight which is amazing. But now the pain is so bad again and the exhaustion and since yesterday i started getting pretty bad vertigo almost going knock out it seems to come from the pain in my neck/spine or something. Which is pretty unbearable and scary to be honest. Another symptom which developed slowly during the years is my stomach feeling extremely bloated also increases when pain etc increases or the other way around. So again im at the point where im forced to rest which is reinforcing me to be scared again and doubts to settle in. I probably shared parts of my story already but i felt the need to put it out here like this and maybe some one can give me some tips as i am confused now. To be positive as well: I always had bad anxiety which got a bit less as i am more confident in the health of my heart even though it palpitates. So my anxiety is 50% less then usually which is nice.