After prowling the site for months now, I've finally decided to dive right on in and seek the guidance of those who have been at this for a while. I'm a 33 year old wife and mother of three under the age of 6 (so right off the bat you know I'm a little crazy ). I've had recurring neck and/or back pain for going on two years now. I am not new to the teachings of Sarno, and I've read several other great books related to TMS as well. Additionally, I would classify myself as having several of the TMS-prone personality traits. I have analyzed my pain from about every angle, and TMS is what I find most fitting. I truly believe that my pain (primarily located in my lower back and radiating to my hips) is TMS. With that said, however, like most of you, I have visited numerous doctors and been subjected to enormous amounts of testing. I've had the MRIs (cervical, thoracic, lumbar, and pelvic), and all have come back essentially normal except for the occasional "protrusion" here and there. No one has ever claimed that to be the source of my pain. My hang up is the rheumatological testing that has been performed. I will try to summarize the last 20 years of testing the best I can. I was originally told I had Sjogren's syndrome due to positive antibodies. However, I have never presented with any of the classic symptoms, and the top notch doctors I have see now all agree Sjogren's isn't my issue. Then I was told I had dysautonomia. Yup, my autonomic system is all out of whack…sounds a whole heck of a lot like TMS. This began right after the birth of my first child, and it was the first thing to make sense. Funnily (is that even a word?) enough, as soon as the doctor told me what I had, I got better. I have been better for awhile until the last couple of years with the neck and back pain. One of my Rheumatologists thinks I possibly have ankylosing spondylitis, and the other one (whom I tend to have more faith in) feels that I do not. I do have a family history of the disease (as well as MS), and I have tested positive for the AS gene (which is not diagnostic for AS, however). The MRI of my SI joint was clear. Thus, I'm leaning towards no AS. My pain has jumped around for the last two years which is another reason I can't get on board the AS diagnosis train. I truly feel that TMS is my issue, as I have successfully treated myself in the past by simply reading Sarno's work. This time, however, the pain seems to be lingering, and my thoughts are running wild. I guess my question to you all is this: how can I push aside all the "maybe" diagnoses I've been saddled with for the last 20 years and fully accept my TMS diagnosis? My biggest hang up is the "maybe something was missed, and it really is autoimmune related" fear. Fear definitely dominates my life. I need help getting out of this hole, for I know it is my last hurdle in true acceptance of this diagnosis. Any thoughts, questions, or guidance would be wonderful! Sorry for being so long winded!