Lavender)- What a nice coincidence to receive your welcome and uplifting advice. You see, I have saved quite a few of your personal testimonies and nuggets of wisdom and I keep them handy. Perhaps that is a confirmation that you are indeed being true to the calling you describe concerning your desire to help folks get healed.
Eric)-Thank you so much lavender, I love that name. My personal testimonies stand as solid truth with all my heart and I have dedicated my life to helping others heal. I know now that if you believe with all your heart that you will heal, you will. Its not about something that's far out and only for the wise- its about a simple understanding of hope and a willingness to ignore all the doubters and nay sayers and also a refusal to fear your past or future and live in the now, in the present knowing that the time will come that your help, hope, and belief will bring you to the finish line of healing.
You have the cure in your Books you read. You have to hold to those words and sentences, make them a part of your very being. Walk it, talk it, know it , become it. what you believe you will receive lavender. You have a chance here and now to do a program that has to be believed and its been proven that its not a placebo, its life and you have to smile on purpose and forget what others say if those words contain doubt. This is full belief in a system that will set you free.
Lavender)-I have been missing life and my independence for 29 months and it is so difficult to think beyond the 24/7 pain and present circumstances and to resist despair. Judging by your opening optimistic remarks, I sense that joining this forum will be a help to pull me out of that negativity. If there is any very obvious repression, it may be my need to keep the knowledge of the degree of suffering and despair from my family lest it sadden them.
Eric)- Listen to me lavender, listen closely with all your heart. I know you're in pain but the more you give in to that word despair the more you feed the pain. You have to adopt thoughts of hope and peace, somehow smile in the valley so you can be brought back up to the mountain tops ok. Read and re-read the success stories of those that had no future to look forward too and now they are winning in life again and you will do the same. Its all about your mental attitude toward wanting to heal. You want to heal I know so go and do the work in Sarnos books, envision yourself as already healed and hold that vision and never let it go. You will walk into that vision in time. This way you are planting seeds into your mind to heal and you will.
Lavender)- BTW, the 3 diagnosis are- Spinal Stenosis and Lumbar discs 4 & 5 (but neither bad enough to be causing this much pain and prevent me from walking.) RSD, there’s the boogeyman with Mr. Fear attached. I don’t like looking at RSD forums, too scary and depressing. However, recently I found a 2007 message from a girl in the UK saying that she had been healed by using the Sarno book! Some wrote to challenge her but I believe her.
Eric)- The boogy man has no power over a mind filled with clean thinking and hope, loose the fear and dwell on the success story you heard for it is truth. If she can heal so can you and it doesn't matter what anyone says even if its someone you trust, if their thoughts are doubt then exclude them from your memory bank and go right on living filling your mind with thoughts of health and well being and eventually you will heal and be a success story yourself. There is nothing more powerful than your thoughts about your own health and well being. its been proven time and time again that folks all over the world have healed from the worst case scenarios because they were willing to accept that they could envision a life without pain and sorrow. You need adapt this attitude to every thought of your day. When you have doubtful thoughts of hurt , worry and pain quickly replace them with thoughts of a life filled with joy and happiness then within minutes you should be able to get your joy back and keep moving in this direction for it is the essence of the power of your mind to heal and obtain the cure.
Lavender)-My troubles began with toe pain after I did a simple toe-exercise to prepare for skiing. No cause for the continuing pain ever found for months, then it went into the other toe and RSD was suspected. Soon the pain went into my back and I attributed it to my altered gait. But suddenly I ended up in the ER with overall body symptoms in addition to the back pains. The young intern never even touched me but drew her conclusions due to the toe story; it always begins with an injury of little or no consequence. A sense of dread zoomed through my whole being because I knew full well about RSD. It had stolen 3 years of my life 2 decades ago. Getting well from that was a life-changing
Eric)- The young intern gave you a nocebo. N0ow do as i described above ok and do the work laid out in Sarnos work and watch life get better. It doesn't take but an instant of talk like you heard above to send you into a downward spiral of hurt and pain . Now stop those hurtful thoughts and focus on healing ok. Youve done it before and you will do it again. Just never give in to that fear again, you will win.
Lavender) How could I get it again? Well they explained that one never really gets well from it and that it can “come out of remission.” But I never bought that line. No, you see, back then, the onset of it was preceded by multiple events of trauma and yes, anger- “stuffers’ as well as raging ( and I thought justified) unforgiveness. ( I have dealt with that since then.) Since this latest diagnosis made in 2010, I can see the common denominator what with 4 major stressors happening close together. So I would define the tendency as a personality trait or a pattern of thinking or I might even blame the memes!
Eric)- You have the answers you said yourself that i outlined in bold above. Go by these and let these thoughts heal you ok.
Lavender)- I do believe that RSD is triggered by emotions even though life was rosy when it began this time. The depression seems to set in later as the day to day struggle takes a toll and “they” say it is harder to get better once you are older. Children do very well with PT. One neurosurgeon didn’t push me to surgery but suggested the epidural to find out if the RSD was making the back pains worse or even vice-versa.
Eric)- All of the above are thoughts of doubt, so stop them as fast as you can, I understand you will have to reprogram but start your reprogramming now with no fear ok. And lose the focus on the body it will only hinder your progress.
Lavender)-I do not have the swollen limbs etc., so my problems are mainly in the hip and lower back. Then when I try to push myself by walking, the pains shoot throughout the body and that in turn scares me and the cycle starts all over. Some of this forums’ links about the mind body cycle of chronic pain have explained the cycle very clearly and so my gratitude goes forth. You are correct! Stinkin’ Thinkin’ is the saboteur but not so easy to correct after a lifetime of patterning.
The medical profession has let me down but I have a good GP who has cleared me to go forth with a TMS approach.
I have been on the SEP and yes, good stuff!
Eric) Dont push yourself to do physical activities till the pain is almost gone ok. Work on the doubts and memes you've been told and other pressures in your life- work on making them of no effect to you, its your life you have the choice to think clean if you wish. Do the SEP and do all of Sarnos daily reminders and live life to the full. Watch as many comedies as you can and laugh as much as possible. You will win this battle. You've done it before, this time you will do it again in a stronger more controlled fashion.
Bless you
Anxiety and fear is a HUGE component of TMS. I think it's kind of the fuel keeping the machinery going. 