I am really working on outcome independence and trying to be indifferent when pain comes on. But every time I feel free of pain and comfortable I can't help but feel how nice life would be like that. I'm always thinking about how to think of the pain too much to the point where that's all I'm thinking about! And I've been so close to the right track before where I was carefree of the pain coming on. Even before I discovered TMS I had no pain for a month just because a doctor told me its something that passes with time so my mind wasn't on it all the time. Not to long ago I was doing great for a week, I had pain but I didn't care I wasn't consumed in it. How do I get back to that place and most importantly how do I know in my gutt I will heal. I want to know deep down everything will be okay.