Yup. 4+ years has been a long time. I’ve had lots of TMS stuff over the years but they always pass. I admit I feel defeated and sad about this leg most days. Gotta work on that. I appreciate the support.
I totally understand. It is only natural to want your leg pain to go 100% away. I mean who wouldn't? We are all human and we all strive that we want to be the best possible person. The thing is even with your leg person you are still a great person. Here is a mindfulness technique that will likely bring you some short term relief. It takes time. There won't be an overnight fix but I bet it will help.
Here’s a quick example for getting some degree of relief from any affliction or unpleasant sensation, physical or emotional:
Lying or sitting in a comfortable, relaxed position, I close my eyes. I take a few deep breaths and settle quietly by focusing on my breath. After a few minutes, I bring my attention back to the pain. (Now for the tricky part.) I just observe the pain without judging it: it is neither good nor bad; it simply
is. I try to identify it: is it pounding, stabbing, compressing, burning? I also take a moment to sense how it makes me feel: hurt, anguished, sad, angry, hopeless, helpless? However I feel, I don’t judge myself for feeling that way. Now back to the pain: I imagine a vast landscape with the horizon far beyond. I allow the aching to take all the space it wants. I let it expand across to the sky. I breathe in, allowing that great expansion. As I breathe out, I release my resistance to the pain.
In-breath: I allow the pain all the room it needs, out-breath: I let go of resistance. I see it. I see the pain spreading over the landscape. I feel resistance leaving my body and heart, flowing away, dissolving.
Get into your heart and let it guide you to your peaceful center. Most important of all as you experiment with this method, be kind to yourself; it may take some practice. I was pleasantly surprised to experience the peace and relief of surrendering to the unlimited possibilities of the universe.
chronic pain, a short circuit in the warning system that keeps the alarm blaring. Pain is objective. Suffering, in contrast, is the subjective sense that your experience is bad, that you’d be better off if things were different.
