At first a bit of an introduction. I'm a 19 year old male and I've had 'RSI' for about two and a half years. I read the divided mind three days ago and I'm very much susceptible to TMS. But to what extent and how? There's a lot that I can relate to in what Dr. Sarno is bringing fourth, but some, not so much. A lot of confusion and even more questions. I genuinely hope some of you read through this and give me feedback. So let me explain my history with the pains, and what I think happened. It started at a very low point in my life, high school. Plenty of insecurities and unhealthy stress. I skipped a lot, didn't have friends, had troubles studying etc. But at the time I found a great passion of mine, competitive gaming. I would spend maybe 5-6 hours behind the computer, trying to get better. It was insanely fun and finally I found something I could get really good at and interact within the community. But then it started. At first in the pinky. I remember it clear as day how I panicked that years of bad posture and lack of exercise brought on one of those carpal tunnel related defects that a lot of people get using computers. I tried desperately to get rid of it. All kinds of stretches and supplements like b complex. Then it skipped on to my shoulder and soon after all over my arms and upper torso. I had to drop my hobby in fear of the pain getting worse and never being able to play video games again. Then it happened again in february last year when I decided that I'm going to get really good at drawing. I deemed it's not as straining for my body as video games and that I should be fine. I could spend hours writing notes in class. I was about a month in my new cause in life and it started. Horrible horrible pain in my upper back. Between the scapula and spine. It was the first time I felt pain there, and it was nothing like RSI which was very random and it jumped around from day to day. I was convinced something in the slight movements of the arm caused this. Once again I had to drop one of my new found passions in hopes of doing it some day in the future. Then about a year ago I dropped out of school and life got very relaxed. I stopped having responsibilities and what I deem was internal rage died down. I started exercising a lot, eating healthier, using the computer less, all in the hopes of overcoming my condition and 'continuing my life'. Yet the pain remained the same. Why? Here's my theory and the whole point of this wall of text. I don't think it was internal rage. It may have started it, but I think it was always related to the activity. The pain always seemed secondary and sort of trivial to the fact that I lost the ability to draw or play video games. And the fear of making it worse was the primary catalyst. Is this TMS? Could this be correct? To recover, do I just have to accept it fully and get over it? Surely if it was all my subconscious having to deal with problems, then the pain would die down completely when I dropped out of school and receiving considerably less stress? Right? I have much more to say about my feelings and history, but for the sake of keeping this already too long post short, I'll stop here. I'm eager to hear your responses and if any of you have any questions about anything, I would be very open to go a bit in depth. This pain has been a huge part of my life in the past years, and I'm very excited about finally moving on.