My TMS cocoon is cracking

I said in one of my earlier posts, something like: “as soon as I can say what I really feel, I’ll get better.”

Well, I’m not better yet, but I’m inching a LOT closer to making my insides match my outsides. At first it was weird and uncomfortable. Now I just blurt out what I need. I turn down things I don’t want to do. I say, “No.”

On a daily basis, I stop and FEEL what’s going on with me. I ask myself, “Do I like this situation? Do I feel uncomfortable?” Then, I adjust accordingly. I disregard all the SHOULDS. I’m basing actions less on should and more on want. It’s strange to think that what I want should count. But it does!

I’m also just plain WAY nicer to myself in what I say in my head. Life is getting pretty darn peaceful.

I still have symptoms. Some have died down a little. I’m doing more physically. Cooked 2 times this week. (A first in over a year!) And doing dishes every night. The kitchen is my gym. It’s where I put in my biggest effort. It’s hard! But I’m proud.

Thanks everyone! I’m learning here! I can honestly say having TMS is transforming my life. I’m still in the cocoon, but I think it’s cracking a little.

 

Bravo!!! This is fantastic progress, Diana!