Hi
@LadyGru and welcome! I wanted to respond the other day then got caught up in a condo thing, which I'm still working on (teensy stress - but very time consuming). Your short and concise introduction (thank you!) lets us know that you are already headed in a new and hopefully positive direction, so I think you just need a little help to get you pointed in the right direction, in the face of an otherwise overwhelming amount of information! I'm going to point you to a couple of my recent posts to newcomers, which I hope will be helpful. If you have any questions, just ask!
https://www.tmswiki.org/forum/threads/neurological-symptoms-superscared.27395/#post-141882 (neurological symptoms, superscared)
https://www.tmswiki.org/forum/threads/retirement-as-tms-trigger.27434/#post-142135 (Retirement as TMS Trigger)
Here's something I saved about doing the SEP (Structured Educational Program)
Starting the SEP is a great first step, but be careful not to overdo it. Seriously, just do one "day" at a time at the most (I would say definitely not more than two, and never more than seven per week - one of which will be a "day of rest" anyway). If you want to do more, focus on anti-anxiety practices, since anxiety is at the heart of TMS for many of us. Find meditations, learn breathing techniques, or start reading
Help And Hope For Your Nerves, by
Claire Weekes. Learning to manage anxiety was key to my recovery, as it is to many of us - in combination with Dr. Sarno and one of our programs.
Keep the following in mind about the process:
- it's not black & white,
- it's not linear,
- it's not possible to know how long it will take
- it's ultimately different for every person who does it.
As for the writing exercises, this work must be done with a serious commitment to self-honesty. Your brain will try to trick you into skipping things ("not necessary") or going too fast ("the faster you get this done, the sooner you'll recover!") or editing what you write down ("you should delete that, it's too embarrassing"). Again - don't be fooled!
At a certain point, often about a week or so into the program, your brain might start throwing new symptoms at you, or revive old ones, or make your current symptoms worse. This is good news, so do not be discouraged! Take a short break from the program, but double down on self-calming and affirmative techniques to talk back to your brain and assure it that you are perfectly safe and it's okay to be doing this.
And I see that
@Cactusflower has offered reassurance and CRPS info - excellent! You're on your way!
~Jan