Hello, my name is Ron, a retired captain, logger and teacher , 2020 has been a hell of a year for me. Maybe everyone could say the same. January 1 New Year’s Day with blinding back pain right out of the blue! I had been cutting a bit of firewood the day before so I figured that I must have overdone it, old age I thought. (I’m 77). But I am fit or thought so. The pain was so blinding that I called my neighbour to see if she had any pain killers. I took all three of the morphine she gave me. It didn’t seem to do much so I called the ambulance. If you’ve ever ridden in a hard sprung ambulance on lousy country roads you will know it’s hell. The emergency doc spends some time prodding and poking and says spinal stenosis. It’s progressive he says. His manner annoys me. I see my own doc a few days later and he says the same. It’s progressive and I just have to get used to it. I think he almost smiled. He has similar. I leave his office with a script for Emtec 30, codeine and Tylenol. So I go home to watch tv and pop the codeine , get a Teeter and wait for it to go away and it does in about 6 weeks. Then in September the pain in the back, arms and legs comes back big time. More codeine and more Teeter with some YouTube inspired stretching. Brad and Doug. Old dudes with back pain. This time it didn’t work. Nothing. The pain was getting worse. By chance I was listening to Joe Rogan talking about back pain and some doc named Sarno. I then read everything by Sarno, Schubiner and a few others and found out about this site. A whole new world has opened up. Repression? That was Psychology 100 and 200 I had studied in university a long time ago. Freud, Jung Adler et al were fascinating at the time but all that seemed to have dropped right off the radar. I hadn’t heard the word repression since the sixties. I totally accept Sarno’s observations about repressed emotions, especially anger. I think the logger and the school teacher must be at war deep down inside somewhere. So, I’m getting humble. Age 77, thought that I had myself and life pretty figured out. Not now. Maybe I don’t know myself at all. Pain is a great motivator. Now, can I learn something? Man, I’m trying. I threw the codeine away and selling the Teeter. Journaling every day. This is a better way. I didn’t want to be junky with pain. Onward.