Yesterday and today my pain has been increased to 50% again during the days. I just realized why. Today was a personal happening in my life. I have been pretty cool about it in my mind and outwards "Its minor, nothing special". Started reading "Healing back pain" for the second time tonight, like 40 pages. Got a realization. My pain went to 0-10% in minutes. I was not really cool about the event unconsciously. I was afraid, worried and angry. And my Moses (Super-ego) have been telling me: you are not strong if this feels difficult for you. If you fear it. If you worry. Don't do that, its weak. And it has not been like conversation, more like automatic due to who I see myself being. But I was afraid. I was worried. And angry. I´m not so cool. But I am in touch with myself tonight!