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Day 18 My journey along some emotions

Discussion in 'Structured Educational Program' started by Lydia, Feb 15, 2017.

  1. Lydia

    Lydia Peer Supporter

    Quite a subject to me, to honestly see and experience what happens, when I close my eyes and speak into my memorecorder to connect with what I feel, while remembering old and traumatic issues. Often a lot of rage pops up, and I see how strong the body sensations are while experiencing this emotion. My face looks like a witch, my eyes are filled with 'hate' as if I am ready to murder somebody right now (-:

    And then, after a while, underlying sadness and grief can come out, if it's there. If there is enough space and I am feeling completely safe (read: alone). It surprises me each time, how big this emotion can be. How much and tall it seems, how almost overwhelming, like a huge dark cloud. How much time it needs to show itself completely, too. How unfamiliar I am with this grief.

    And... how strong also the mind wants to interfere, and push it down and back again, where it was locked up for all these years. This morning I could see clearly the step-by-step mechanism of surpressing emotion. How it works. How tempting it is to let that happen, and do nothing, just give in.

    I am so grateful for that 'seeing-experience'. It helps me to stay on track and believe in TMS.

    Pfffff, I am so tired afterwards. There is the big relief that I can experience in my body (with rage less pain in my arms, and with grief more space on the chest, easier breathing) and there is also the exhaustion. I allow myself to take a small nap, and then celebrate the rest of the day the letting go of old shit, and taking care of my body and soul (-:

    Have a nice day you all, and I am really curious about your experiences with emotions (-:
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  2. Walt Oleksy

    Walt Oleksy Beloved Grand Eagle

    Hi, Lydia. By coincidence, yesterday I came upon an excellent article about the roles that emotions and feelings
    play in our health and they relate importantly to TMS healing. I am going to post the article today for you and all TMSers to consider.

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