Whew. What a ride, folks. Up and down but I'm making progress. I get so scared sometimes in an illogical visceral way that there's something structural wrong inside my rectum, but the fact is with exposure to activities and continued mind/body work, I'm slowly improving. That's the best evidence of all. Still, to calm me during my more intense moments, at the advice of my pain therapist, I made a TMS evidence sheet that is focused only on the present, not the past (where things get a little fuzzy). Thought I'd share. Any encouragement is welcome! My TMS Evidence Sheet Variety of sensations at different times (burning, stabbing, tingling, tightness, etc.) Intensity of sensations (can jump to a 10/10 without warning) My experience lines up with other people's TMS experiences Moves to many locations (incl. rectum, hips, glutes, legs, lower back) Comes and goes Persistent (had it for a year) Same activity = different results (for example: same chair can be fine or debilitating) Better in the mornings Better in the evenings even after lots of activity No visible issues Received multiple clear medical examinations Pelvic PT detected tender muscles as a source of pain My personality type fits (perfectionist, hyper vigilant, etc.) Experienced intense extinction bursts recently before improvement With this work, I'm slowly getting better It's hard to be calm when you have a pain in your butt, but I'm really inspired by those who have gone before, faced it and eliminated it. I intend to do the same. Love to everyone who is on their own TMS journey!