My crooked teeth - Invisalign, For two nights now I have woken up agonizing over my teeth decision. I have booked up with a new dentist to have all my wisdom and one front tooth pulled and signed up for Invisalign. I am 71 years old and my teeth story is an epic that spans 50 years, it parallels Wavy Soul’s story without the pain. In 1978 on arrival to the United States from the UK, my first dentist was very keen to remove and replace all my Amalgam fillings. I don’t remember exactly how many, but I went along with it when discovering they contained mercury. Compared to the dusty makeshift dental offices of 70’s England, I willingly fell into the American dental practice program. Fast forwarding 40 years I have a now mouth full of fillings and crowns and several root canals. Some fillings have even been replaced twice and then crowned, and I now sport a mouth of 17 crowns that are complemented by very crooked front teeth. This crowding happened very slowly over the years, and looking back I remember in 2005 my mother commenting on my ugly front teeth. It is with some considerable unhappiness that I have become fully aware that my four wisdom teeth are even crowned and filled, two of them with gold caps. Along the way I have trusted my skillful Chinese dentist decisions, sorting out the Insurance claims and for the most part being frugal over my treatment. Never once did he suggest removing any of these back teeth despite discussing my crooked teeth at the front. It was: “Save the tooth at all costs”. So now with a serious gum biting issue from my front teeth and new dentist I have to make the decision to have them pulled, since I am signing up for Invisalign treatment. I cast my mind back to the age of 12 when I first heard about wisdom teeth being pulled. What happened then? This decision is normally made by mothers and fathers. I am further angered reflecting I was at that time placed in a fucking boarding school, (home for unwanted kids). Literally I was out of sight and mind of my parents. Calm down Andy, calm down, for I am partly responsible, for the guilt is equally shared between myself, my parents and my Chinese dentist, I have to forgive and look to the future. Since retiring in 2011, I have started thinking about “me”. Where did these feelings of “not feeling good enough” come from, and why do they still linger. Dr. Sarno stated this was a whole new realm of psychology that needs addressing. I remember getting a humorous uplift hearing Dana Carvey’s “We are not worthy” skits on SNL. In 2015 under the care of my ophthalmologist, I made the decision to have my eye lids reshaped. I was having treatment for cataracts at the time, and ended up having both upper and lower lids fixed. Medicare took care of the cost for the upper lids because it was considered a peripheral vision issue. There was two-part reasoning for the lower bags that cost me money, cosmetic appearance, and I wanted to avoid the droopy pink bags that some old people have, it just does not look healthy. So now my face is spruced up a little, but my teeth look like shit. My research into Invisalign is controversial. I have read good and bad reviews. The trays are bothersome to deal with and I need up front knowledge about what is involved. A quick fix is not available and I know costs and time frame will be excessive, so I have made a commitment list to feel more comfortable with this decision. I am mentally preparing myself for the extractions. I asked my wife: “should I be nervous”? I see her as the expert making elective surgery decisions. Yes, I will be nervous, but the extractions will be the clearing of the brush for beautiful flowers to grow.