Alright so I'm in a bit of a conundrum. I've literally trained my brain, or what it feels like anyway, to have anxiety when I'm not thinking about TMS. To have anxiety when I think of going out, etc. To have anxiety literally in any instance. And it's really messing with me. I know this is the "loop" people talk about. I am developing more symptoms and my body literally feels like its going to explode. I ground, i talk myself through it, but when I try to focus on anything other than TMS my brain wigs out, and then when i focus on the pain my brain wigs out. I am quite positive this all has to do with my being a perfectionist, doing this all "right". It's my damn ego. Literally, the more I want to let go the more it grasps on but then when I grasp on it gives me anxiety too. Literally the"divided mind". I can "feel" my symptoms slowly creep through my body, I'm downright scared all the time, even though I KNOW this is TMS. I cannot for the life of my switch the fear switch off. I've been trying for a good month and a half and it's just so damn persistent. For example, i think of the word "Acceptance" - and along the way i must have labelled that word bad somewhere- and it gives me anxiety. I know i can get through this, but holy shit. is the brain ever a powerful thing. I don't even know what I'm looking for here. honestly. maybe someone else who's gone through this? Everything is literally causing me anxiety. I can feel it attaching anxiety to "safety thoughts". Like its just bizarre.