I have been on this forum since September dealing with back and leg pain and most recently vertigo. I have had some weeks when I felt like I was making progress and other times, like now, when I have prayed for God to please ease the pain somewhat or just call me home because I cannot stand it anymore. I would never take my own life but if God decided to, well thats different. I am listening to Claire Weeks. And trying to just let the fear and pain not consume me. I have some success (short term) but I am waking up in a panic - daily. I have gone from sleeping thru 9 hr to waking up 3 times during the night. I cannot get out and do much outside of the house and any perceived threat to my independence is a huge fear. All of this pain and extra fear set in Thanksgiving evening and has not let up. Lots of low back pain and muscle spasm both upper legs. I can hardly wAlk again. I do not know what triggered it. I will have a skype session thursday with my therapist. In the meantime, please help me with some words of wisdom.