Hi. I read Dr. Sarno’s book on healing back pain in 1992 or thereabouts and it helped me to recover from the constant, debilitating back pain that was ruining my life. I have never had more than a fleeting problem with my back since that time. However, I’m one of those who, over the years, has developed many other “tms equivalents”. To cope with them, I have been a member of tmshelp.com for many years although periods of activity on the forum there have been interspersed with long periods of inactivity. Sometimes the inactivity has been the result of relative good health and other times of discouragement and exasperation. Still, I always come back when I'm ready for the next step. Just today I discovered the Structured Education Program here on tmswiki.org. Great idea! I’m hoping that this will help me to become a more positive person. My childhood was abusive and, although I’ve made lots of progress toward dropping my fear and rage about those years, I am still inclined to take a negative view of life -- always expecting the worst. Although I can cope with pain quite easily now, my new goal is to deal with the anxiety and life long depression fueled by my controlling and perfectionist nature. I want to be a “let go and let God” kind of person who accepts what comes in life as a gift and a challenge, not a personal assault. So, wish me luck. I hope that my story shows how mind/body awareness can lead to a life long path of growth. My biggest gain so far is that I no longer care about being a “winner” and proving myself to anybody, about anything. I just want to be a person who enjoys life and is grateful for all that is good and beautiful in the world.