ok well i haven't really kept a proper log of my dairy. I tend to write my entries on random scrap paper or old exercise books, so I will have to go from memory. I have definitely experienced sadness and anger (less so then sadness) due to the way I was treated as a kid (family members as well as typical kid stuff such as bullying etc). There were even things that I had nearly forgotten that had caused hurt from the most unlikely people. Entries about my present self mostly talk about my fear of not being good enough, always being wrong and I guess just a general realization that there is a lack of self love. I feel my (challenging as F#@CK) music course which I am currently doing/ breaking up with my g.f ( a year ago) has helped me to expose my lack of self love. I find that when my life looses its challenges I tend to care about myself a little less and up being more the person I used to be.