I think that the most troubling thing I have heard from a doctor had to do with my mental health, not my physical health. Prior to seeing the therapist, I had three episodes of clinical depression which I recovered from. I was concerned about the possibility of having more. She said that some people are predisposed to depression and based on my history I seem to be one of them. This had the unintended consequence of making me afraid of my sadness and bad moods. Whenever I had a bad mood, I would worry that I would slide into depression. So that fear was always there in the background, sometimes consciously but I think sometimes unconsciously as well. I did do healthy things to improve my mood, but I think I this compounded my pre-existing tendency to repress my sadness. Or maybe not so much prepress it, but muffle it a little bit. For example, very sad might come through as just a little sad. I have a tendency to be afraid of my feelings. I am coming to realize that there is a grand irony to repressing emotions and emotional strength. When you repress emotions, when one finally escapes and goes public, it is pretty strong, sometimes overwhelming. When they come out people often accuse me of over-reacting or blowing things out proportion or inappropriate outburst or something similar. So then I think, I really need to keep my emotions clamped down because they are so strong and almost out of control. The irony is that if I did not repress them, I probably would not get overly emotional.