woke up this am feeling pretty good. I started doing chores and by 10:30 I was very involved and started experiencing onset of anxiety I just rolled with it. Did some work, then anxiety became intense. I kept working and accepting the anxiety. Pretty soon I had back pain and side pain and some intense stomach discomfort. I knew it was TMS, trying to get me toward fear. I wasn’t afraid. It waxed and wained. I went to the gym and exercised for 40mins. I was anxious but I did some visualization and I got through it. I had some true moments of joy. After my workout I was trembling. I let it happen. I went home and had intense dizziness for about 5 mins. I laid down and did some somatic tracking and it went away. I prepared some dinner and it came back with some nausea and more peeps of stomach discomfort. The whole time I had zero fear but it felt like having a child throw a tantrum. I thought, nope...do what you will I’m done being afraid. I’m sure it will be back but I never backed down nor did I let it get the best of me. It wasn’t easy but I felt more free mentality from the grips of fear and the fear generated by pain. I hope I continue to make progress but I’ve been in this back and forth state since May so maybe by August or September I hope things get even better.