So the most helpful news article was the 20-20 television programme, because I grew up with this, and know it was a trustworthy piece of news, the reporters avoiding sensationalistic accounts. After another difficult night, I had a brilliant night's sleep, and the difference was that I meditated to lower the anxiety level. I also have been sitting more and ...not always comfortably, but not in significant discomfort either. Even managed to get my hair cut finally. One dose of ibuprofen yesterday and a heating pad, that's it. Walked 4-5 miles yesterday, no pain other than just muscular exertion until the end of the day when I got tired. An old friend from high school visited which was a bit stressful, but I am did it anyhow...time to get more in the world again, step by step. I was pretty exhausted by 9 pm, went to bed, but had poor night's rest...no night pain, but in the morning, the damn anxiety surfaced. I am very tired this morning, and much as I want to sleep, i suppose I need to muddle through. I just am amazed how I went from a frequent flyer to an anxiety ridden basket case in a few months. At least I do not have anxiety so much during the day...it is those alternative nights that are the problem.