Hey guys, I've been in and out of here over the years. The discovery of TMS really saved me a few years back when I got hit HARD by chronic groin pain and couldn't shake it. The doctors were about to give up and remove my epididymis due to unsolvable "chronic epididymitis" when I stumbled upon TMS and Sarno as a last resort. Since then it's been quite a journey with TMS symptoms coming and going all over the body. I've learned to really build my confidence and not be as much of a people pleaser or let people take advantage of me. And I'm really proud of how far I've come overcoming my lack of social skills and confidence around women and other people in general. But here we are again, a TMS relapse. It has to be at least. I've been here SOOOO many times before with a new obsessive feeling or pain that I can't stop fixating on and swearing I might have cancer or need to see the doctor right away. The obsessive feeling in my mind is all too familiar TMS. So I'm on a work trip for two weeks in California. Me and my coworker decided to cut out and go to Vegas for our off day. I got way too drunk, blacked out. I hate that feeling but it's happened to me so many times in my life. I'd say I have a long history with drinking way too much and doing regrettable things (most of the time not remembering anything). But anyways I was doing much better recently. I was in a relationship for about 6 months last year and during that time I had absolutely no issue with alcohol. But now that I'm single again (I broke up with her), it seems like I'm more prone to the black outs again. I think the trigger point is being in social situations without a significant other and if things aren't going my way or I revert back to my insecure childhood then I start hitting the shots and boom it's lights out Anyways, over the weekend I drank WAY too much. Me and my coworker were kinda on a mission to find some females to spend the night with and both came up empty handed. I went back to work on Monday just feeling that terrible (about to be a 2 day hangover) feeling and just general depression and shame over how drunk I got and I'm sure there was some insecurities of not being able to "score" and all that stuff. So yeah, as I'm urinating on Monday I feel a slight twinge in my genitals. (Not in usually spot that I'm used to during my bad initial spell but more in the central area if you know what I mean). It caught my attention, and as we got to Tuesday I started fixating on this tickling (almost like an itch) twinge every time I urinated. Then it got to the obsessive stage where I started thinking about it constantly as I walked, moved, sat, etc. And it was getting worse, sometimes I felt a sharp pain and sometimes it was just a dull tingle. If I put my finger on the bottom of my penis and follow it down toward my prostate area then I feel like I can pin point exactly the source of the pain. Of course this puts my brain to "Oh my God it's a cyst or worse a tumor. What if I have uretha cancer or prostate cancer?" But anyways that's where I'm at today. The pain seems to be getting gradually more worse but also my fear and anxiety is also getting worse. If I focus on something else then I don't notice the twinge really. But I still always feel it when I urinate. I'm 90 percent sure it's TMS, but I guess I just came here to get it all out there and get some encouragement and reassurance. Thanks guys.