I have been virtually pain-free & managing well emotionally so I haven't been on here in almost a year. Time to time I do experience a little pain but that is when I am too stressed out in school & then I know it is a signal to ease up on myself. I am on summer break right now & have been working more & while I haven't had "pain", I have been sore & a little stiff. I thought "I should get a chiropractic adjustment to loosen things up." Part of it is that I have met my deductible for the year already since I had a small umbilical hernia that I had repaired (so I would pay next to nothin). Also, he is office is about a mile from me...so I wouldn't be inconvenienced. I am a frugal person & was so angry after I read Healing Back Pain last summer (but glad to have found my solution). All the money I had "wasted" in my opinion disgusted me. Anyway...that was my reasoning. I just thought it would feel good. So last night & this morning I was feeling guilty about the appointment (like a drunk that was going to go to a bar & falling off the wagon) so I cancelled it. I know I made the right decision. My question is...do you think this was TMS trying to rear it's ugly head? Perhaps there is something going on subconsciously I should be concerned about. I am not looking for validation to make an appointment (I am not going to)...I just wonder why I even made it in the first place. So I started reading Steve Ozanich's book (which I haven't read) to reinforce my learning since I haven't had to revisit any books in awhile. I asked this question on the "Ask a Therapist" forum as well.