So I did write down some past tramatic events and my exercises like it said but what I am currently going through is lying and how it affects me. Or is it lying? The two people I am lying too is my husband and boss about saying I feel fine no pain from work. Sometimes I am at great pain when I say this fighting to hold my beliefs in TMS and fearful of losing my job if I tell the truth. I am feeling guilty, shameful and fearful about the lying but most times I ignore my feelings as I do most time anyway and press on through. My husband has figured it out because he sees heating pad when I cme home and immediately lay down. I know dr Sarno's says to live your life and ignore the pain but when my mid back feels like it is on fire I do the thing that always takes the pain away...I struggle with this. Should I continue in pain to press through? I am grateful it is not daily like many others, my pain comes when stressed at home or at work. I haven't felt pain since my last day at work last Friday. I go back tomorrow, I find myself since it seems to be happening every work day unable to sleep night before work and fighting to stay positive in beliefs about TMS.