looking for support

[Leelee19]

Hi all on the forum.

I’m on day 25 of the sep and it felt right to post here to ask for some support guidance.

Some background I had this same pain right hip and back pain about 5 years ago, it was alot worse, I had numb legs. It lasted for over one year and no treatments worked, I spent all my savings trying to help it.
I found tms out of desperation and the pain
went away. it took about 4 months or so and it slowly went away.

I have had flare ups they last one or two weeks and I start the sep and they go.
I am confident in the tms diagnosis, as I have been pain free before. )

This flare has lasted about a month and I am still in pain, I’m on week 3 of the sep.

I have back pain and hip pain. The pain level is the same. I am doing my best to ignore the pain, and I am also exercising at the gym most days.

I have noticed that I do have some fear of the pain, but I thought I will gradually increase me weights and exercise to prove to my brain there is nothing wrong with me.
I will also run as I have had a fear of running and not done it.
I do also meditate most days and I am journaling on the sep.

My question is to any fellow tms people on this site, that have gone though this.

Is there anything else more I can do to help myself ? Any suggestions would be really appreciated. I feel like I am getting a bit
fear that this will not go away ?

I really appreciate being able to ask people that understand, thank you to you all.
Have a good day.

Regards
Lee

 

[Aimee88]

Hello and welcome. Interestingly, your symptoms sound a lot like mine, at least what I had towards the end, which was last year. I just came back here today to write my success story. For me, the journaling really helped, just feeling the feelings and getting them out (just on paper, then shredded). I still sit every morning and start with 'what am I feeling?' Fear, guilt, judgement, anger....anything that has been suppressed, repressed, or ignored is perfect to clear out, feel through, and let go. I did the SEP as well and really liked it. When something niggles or hurts, I try to quickly get to 'ok, it's safe to feel whatever, I'm safe to feel, I don't need this pain.' In fact today, as I walked in beautiful scenery, and there was pain in my foot, I was saying 'there is no place for pain in this body. I don't need it. There is nothing wrong with my body.' And then my neck hurt. Ha!! And I repeated...no, no pain is welcome here. And the neck pain went so quickly. And I went back to enjoying the scenery and taking photos, and soon realised that for all the time I was taking photos I was unaware of any pain. (It is all in my head!!) The foot is still trying to sneak in, and I'm open to the guilt that I think is still present and wanting to be felt. I'll sit with that. But I'll also be back on my feet to do what I want, without worry!

I'm so grateful for this forum. There are so many wise and caring people here.