I am new to the forum.This is my first message on a interactive site.
In 2012 I injured my left foot.I
was a runner 9 years.
My injury was real and not diagnosed for 5 months and many failed types of treatment
in the months before diagnosis discouraged me . After diagnosis( and before) I had foot pain in all movements and started doing everything differently to accomodate that I thought about every step I took and life became hard for me. Thinking I was over using my hand to lift myself out of chairs I developed bilateral hand and wrist pain and shoulder pains and became hypersensitive about all my movements looking for pain constantly. I started listening to my knees and began thinking about all my movements sitting and standing. I had orthodics made and they helped me . I took extended acupuncture during this time.
As far as my right foot I was given the okay to commence running in the fall of 2013. The pain was not there but my hands and wrists and shoulders were painful and I was in misery. When I began running I was de-conditioned and scared , and it was hard on me. I immediately suffered a right foot tendonitis. After that I had difficulty walking( which I had not had with my original foot injury) and after that I needed physiotherapy again and went for a number of months . That immobility really scared me. All of these months were dark as I would wake every day to left foot pain and spasm and after my tendonitis I started to guard that foot as well. Both feet took to hurting and I was in misery.
Before the second injury I was somewhat optimistic about a return to normal life .After my second injury that seemed to fade. Those next months were dark for me with 2 sore feet hurting in places I never ever had pain. The tendonitis did heal completely.
Despite this backdrop I tried running again in 2014, June. I ran for 3 weeks in a row but my left ankle on the inside side pained so I stopped again. I walked a great deal for my tremendous anxiety abut all of this and keeping my health with physical activity. I never enjoyed it but did it compulsively. I still was uneasy about all of my movements monitoring every move for pain. All summer I had continual blisters ( which I never before had in my entire life) which made me scared and overwhelmed .
In the late summer of 2014 I found out about Dr. Sarnos on line and ordered his book. My problems were not back related but I could see many parallels . I read the book and my hand and wrist pains went away. Prior to that I had thought I had real problem there. My left foot pain also diminished significantly. I felt more normal that I had for a long time. I had not problems with either leg .
In August of 2014 my father died. I had not been myself for over two years when this happened and I so sad he did not get to see me" right" before he passed away. He loved me so much and just wanted me to be well.
Despite all my reading the fear still continued but diminished. I tried running here and there and had calf pain. I got a stretch for this and it went away . I was amazed I could get some relief.
I walked all summer and got in good distances but was always in some sort of low level pain due to incredible fear of immobility. I have not taken one foot step since this all happened that I do not pay attention to or monitor...not one...
On a couple of occasions in this period I thought I was as better as I could get and then I would have pain that would make me cry out of fear and anxiety . I dug out Dr. Sarnos and continued reading. I got all three of his books. Just reading his books some days would make it better.
In December of 2014 I commenced running again. I am a three time a week runner 5 k . I started and had left leg pain at the top of pelvis . I tried as much as possible to just resume my normal activities. I had upper left pelvis pain but my foot was fine. I kept running and got a stretch that brought complete relief. I had been limping in pain but the stretch and my heated car seat made me realize it was all a facade. My heated car seat brought complete relief and I could see some light at the end of the tunnel.
I ran throughout January and February and was okay but my left foot would always be there in my mind. It would spasm at predictable times after a run but always there.
In March I got a discomfort on the right leg in the quad. I again saw the deception and continued to run through the pain but it was quite painful and I went to see physio who gave me some stretches after an exam She felt I was good to run and that all of my muscles and balance were good..
Now my left quad muscle hurts to walk and I am so desperately upset I cannot even think . I have been under the power of this problem for 3 years in May and it has literally taken over my life. I am limping and have stopped exercising which is something I have done daily for 17 years.
There is no one who understands the internal frustration that comes with going from being an active , healthy person to one absolutely paralyzed with fear of pain and living with pain.
Dr. Sarnos book helped me tremendously and it turned me around but now I am at my wits end again with the fear of what this new pain that is stopping me from walking will do to me. I am reading my books but feeling so discouraged. My mind is working me to now about this pain and I monitor my standing and walking.
I had had much anxiety for years before this injury and aftermath and afterwards I could not get anxious about anything much. I cannot think of things that make me mad except my situation . Things that used to terrify me before do not anymore.
I have read and reread Dr. Sarnos's books and have his Healing Back Pain with me at all times in my purse. I have tried doing the journal and write out things but it does not seem to help at all. I also listen to UTube videos about success ect.. I have thought of seeing TMS doctor. I have struggled alone for three years and would so much like input, insight . With great thanks...
In 2012 I injured my left foot.I
was a runner 9 years.
My injury was real and not diagnosed for 5 months and many failed types of treatment
in the months before diagnosis discouraged me . After diagnosis( and before) I had foot pain in all movements and started doing everything differently to accomodate that I thought about every step I took and life became hard for me. Thinking I was over using my hand to lift myself out of chairs I developed bilateral hand and wrist pain and shoulder pains and became hypersensitive about all my movements looking for pain constantly. I started listening to my knees and began thinking about all my movements sitting and standing. I had orthodics made and they helped me . I took extended acupuncture during this time.
As far as my right foot I was given the okay to commence running in the fall of 2013. The pain was not there but my hands and wrists and shoulders were painful and I was in misery. When I began running I was de-conditioned and scared , and it was hard on me. I immediately suffered a right foot tendonitis. After that I had difficulty walking( which I had not had with my original foot injury) and after that I needed physiotherapy again and went for a number of months . That immobility really scared me. All of these months were dark as I would wake every day to left foot pain and spasm and after my tendonitis I started to guard that foot as well. Both feet took to hurting and I was in misery.
Before the second injury I was somewhat optimistic about a return to normal life .After my second injury that seemed to fade. Those next months were dark for me with 2 sore feet hurting in places I never ever had pain. The tendonitis did heal completely.
Despite this backdrop I tried running again in 2014, June. I ran for 3 weeks in a row but my left ankle on the inside side pained so I stopped again. I walked a great deal for my tremendous anxiety abut all of this and keeping my health with physical activity. I never enjoyed it but did it compulsively. I still was uneasy about all of my movements monitoring every move for pain. All summer I had continual blisters ( which I never before had in my entire life) which made me scared and overwhelmed .
In the late summer of 2014 I found out about Dr. Sarnos on line and ordered his book. My problems were not back related but I could see many parallels . I read the book and my hand and wrist pains went away. Prior to that I had thought I had real problem there. My left foot pain also diminished significantly. I felt more normal that I had for a long time. I had not problems with either leg .
In August of 2014 my father died. I had not been myself for over two years when this happened and I so sad he did not get to see me" right" before he passed away. He loved me so much and just wanted me to be well.
Despite all my reading the fear still continued but diminished. I tried running here and there and had calf pain. I got a stretch for this and it went away . I was amazed I could get some relief.
I walked all summer and got in good distances but was always in some sort of low level pain due to incredible fear of immobility. I have not taken one foot step since this all happened that I do not pay attention to or monitor...not one...
On a couple of occasions in this period I thought I was as better as I could get and then I would have pain that would make me cry out of fear and anxiety . I dug out Dr. Sarnos and continued reading. I got all three of his books. Just reading his books some days would make it better.
In December of 2014 I commenced running again. I am a three time a week runner 5 k . I started and had left leg pain at the top of pelvis . I tried as much as possible to just resume my normal activities. I had upper left pelvis pain but my foot was fine. I kept running and got a stretch that brought complete relief. I had been limping in pain but the stretch and my heated car seat made me realize it was all a facade. My heated car seat brought complete relief and I could see some light at the end of the tunnel.
I ran throughout January and February and was okay but my left foot would always be there in my mind. It would spasm at predictable times after a run but always there.
In March I got a discomfort on the right leg in the quad. I again saw the deception and continued to run through the pain but it was quite painful and I went to see physio who gave me some stretches after an exam She felt I was good to run and that all of my muscles and balance were good..
Now my left quad muscle hurts to walk and I am so desperately upset I cannot even think . I have been under the power of this problem for 3 years in May and it has literally taken over my life. I am limping and have stopped exercising which is something I have done daily for 17 years.
There is no one who understands the internal frustration that comes with going from being an active , healthy person to one absolutely paralyzed with fear of pain and living with pain.
Dr. Sarnos book helped me tremendously and it turned me around but now I am at my wits end again with the fear of what this new pain that is stopping me from walking will do to me. I am reading my books but feeling so discouraged. My mind is working me to now about this pain and I monitor my standing and walking.
I had had much anxiety for years before this injury and aftermath and afterwards I could not get anxious about anything much. I cannot think of things that make me mad except my situation . Things that used to terrify me before do not anymore.
I have read and reread Dr. Sarnos's books and have his Healing Back Pain with me at all times in my purse. I have tried doing the journal and write out things but it does not seem to help at all. I also listen to UTube videos about success ect.. I have thought of seeing TMS doctor. I have struggled alone for three years and would so much like input, insight . With great thanks...
